Joy

I've been so stressed lately, with so many things. I have been so exhausted and Jesse has been picking up so much of my slack. He is taking 21 units (7classes), working, and he is going to take 2 extra 5 week classes coming up in about 2 weeks. Can you say crazy busy!? I feel so worried for him, that his mental health is ok and that he is physically feeling well.

I am teaching at work as well and that is a whole other story, it just adds a lot more stress for me. One of the biggest struggles in my life is stress management. When I'm stressed, Im exhasted. I think that goes for just about everyone in the world, but i stress and worry like nobody's business. Jesse is slowly realizing how much i worry and how much i analyze every situation. I am so lucky to have married someone who thinks a lot as well (so he understands me) but he doesn't over do it like I do. He helps me to calm down, to not stress and to take it easy. I am just so happy to have married such an incredible partner. Sappy i know.

Today we went to the temple. I wasn't feeling very well today, but we went anyway because we both knew it would help so much. We didnt do a session, we just did initiatory's and can i just say wow. I was so comforted and and calmed. I mean, I have been so intense and high strung lately and when i got there i just closed my eyes and soaked it all in. We are so lucky as members to have temples. And Jesse and I are so lucky to have a temple that is 7 minutes from our house. Its hard for me to put into words how I felt today. I was able to listen to the words and pray about the things in my life that I need to work on and things that I need to let go of. It was just what i needed.

After i was done, i went out to the entrance and sat in a chair to wait for Jesse. At first i just thought about how amazing it is to come in, from our busy lives and have some sort of clarity and purpose. This life is hard and there are so many things on our minds everyday that we forget to take a deep breath and give thanks for all we do have. The temple gives us perspective and a clear path that we need to follow. After a little "pondering" I saw a man dressed in a suit, and not long after i saw his bride walk in in her wedding dress. They both smiled and hugged each other.  It reminded me how lucky we are to be sealed for time and eternity. I am just so thankful for the ability to be with Jesse, here and forever.

Then I ended the day by going to Emma's birthday party in Davis! She is so funny! Basically today was a great day for me i love my family, i love the temple, and i love the church. :) Its my bed time but i needed to get some things off my chest, hopefully I can sleep tonight ;))))))))))