the simple things

In January Jesse and I decided to go gluten free for a while to see if it would help me feel better. We went to San Diego at the beginning of March and decided to go on a "break" from gluten free. At that point we had been doing it for about 6 weeks. We decided to go off gluten free that weekend because; Jesse loves his moms cooking and we thought it would be too hard (and expensive) to continue it through the weekend. So we went off and I didn't feel a difference at all, none whatsoever. I was completely suprised. I thought I would feel at least a tiny difference.. but I didn't. So that was a bummer and I wasn't exactly sure what to do.

I was diagnosed with PCOS many years back but was never really explained what it was in detail, also being so young I didn't understand it. And actually forgot about it until, 8 months ago when I went in for a physical and my doctor brought it to my attention again. I've been reading about it and basically sugar is a huge factor in the insulin resistance side of it. It sort of hit me that I need to steer clear of sugar all together. It is the main reason I have low energy and it is my biggest weakness.

I have always been a sucker for sugar. I love sugar and I can eat a LOT of it, its partly the reason I'm thin, I eat more sugar/candy than food. I don't want to be some manic person who is always trying new "diets" and projects, etc. I mean I don't do these diets for my weight, although I am conscious of it, its not my main focus. My main focus is to get healthy and to stay healthy. I've always had health problems and I am so over it. I realize that it is in my hands to change a good bit of it. Not entirely because I know that health is my biggest struggle in this life. Some days are better than others but I think that if I can cut out all sugar and excersise a few days a week, I will feel so much better. I am pretty excited and I hope that I can be strong enought to cut it out completely.

On another note here is the cutest pic that I love so much. Its the simple things in life that I am so grateful for and wouldn't change/trade for anything. Jesse resting his head on my knees :)