Up and Down

I've been on an emotional rollercoaster ride for the past 2 months. (As Nik would say, "poor Jesse!") But seriously, it has been rough. I have felt at times that I am going crazy! I have been, impatient, sad, and I have had a TON of anxiety. More than I have ever had in my life. For a while, I had no idea why I was such a mess...and let me say, JUST THAT can make a person crazy. I now know its because of my hormone levels. My hormones have always been nuts, but the past 2-3 months have been pretty hard. Not being in control of my own body is frustrating. And just not being myself, was really hard not knowing why.

The past month we finally figured out why and you would think things would get better immediately? Not so much.. Its been better, but there are definitely better days than others. I've written a lot down so I can remember everything, and it has helped. But then I get days, where I randomly get sad. And can't control how I'm feeling. I hate being so up and down! I think I sort of make myself crazy thinking about every little detail. I know it is normal to do that, but it is frustrating when I tell myself not to dwell or worry..and I do just that!

But times like these, I am so grateful for because I have never felt a stronger relationship with Heavenly Father. I am leaning on the gospel, Jesse, and my family and it is a really good thing. Jesse and I have set family goals and it feels good to have something to work toward. Its a slow process, and I have set backs often, but Heavenly Father has a plan for us and I know that to be true. All I can do is take it day by day and be thankful for all the things I have in my life :)